my life is totally devastated

that's how exactly i feel inside.. well, i know i've done a lot of things, some of them are stupid mistakes.. and gosh, why do i always do those mistakes ?? i really wish i could turn back the time.. Ya Allah,, please forgive me.. and help me to find a way back.. sometimes i think You're mad with me,, but hhhhh.. maybe i deserve it.. Please forgive me..